Leaves
She's a tree with its leaves falling off
You trace her from her roots
To the tips of her seemingly never ending branches
Only to find she's letting all of her most colorful pieces crash down,
Just to build up again
And so the cycle continues
You can see her hints of spring
And you can sense her cool winds of a coming fall,
Not quite sure how to get through
All of the seasons she has to offer, however beautiful
As you attempt to climb her,
You'll discover more branches to be unstable than you initially perceived
And as you start to fall
Alongside one you thought sturdy enough to take a rest on,
You find yourself feeling like another leaf
Just another piece of a constant cycle
Lingering
When your bed still smells
Of someone
Who no longer chooses to lay in it,
You can't help
But breathe heavier, deeper
In hopes that they'll return
To linger
On your sheets once more
Forgiveness
Pull me under
Suck me in
I'm yours to forgive
Waves stop crashing for no one
They are meant to consume
Like the gravity of my mistakes
They'll swallow you
I'll give my all
To calm the seas, but
I'm as trapped as you are,
Mind far from ease
Make peace if you must, but
I'm a burden at best
While I stay drowning in your love
You stay drowning in my mess
Unfixable
Forever below the rest
Aching
I am sick to my stomach
Of my head being tied in knots
I try to break through
With all that I've got
But my hands won't follow suit
Nose always bleeding
From my mind running in circles
I try grasping for air
But lack of breath has me purple
I ache for solitude,
Clear waters, clear skies
But as I look in the mirror
I see only my demise
The curse of a world
That never stops spinning
Leaves only a wish
To go back to the beginning
Anchor
I was the message, you were the bottle
That pulled me out to sea
Said you'd keep me warm and dry
Keep the storms from touching me
But you turned into an anchor
Placed your weight upon my shoulders
You drowned me in that ocean
When you told me it was over
I looked at the crashing waves and accepted my fate
Took one last breath and I screamed for heaven's gate
A hard life that I'd lived and you came in like a gift
But you chose to be deceitful,
A man whose sanity's adrift
A true cage behind front of shelter
The maggot before the fly
You swear you've become better
You're still nothing but a lie
'Cause you can change your faulty habits
You can change your uncouth mates
But you will never be a new man,
You still have the same ruinous fate
So don't find me in another life,
I won't find you in mine
You're nothing but a burden,
Painted over filthy swine
A mind to become better,
Oh god I hope it does
You've got so much potential
But you remain a bluff
You choose to be the anchor
Playing one with the bottle
Floating people along
And then pulling them to the bottom
But the story never changes,
Not for a dirty coward
That doesn't see his faults,
Just admits to the sour
I Hope
Daydreaming in circles
Thinking of what once was
Colorful souls,
Volatile love
You gave up, I gave in
World spun upside down
With a hit and a miss
A sorry result of hopelessness
And though there's blood on your hands
Ones I wish I still held
Guilt lies in the blood on mine
Sorrowful for both, feeling of hell
Now I wait for the day
That I can pass you the pen
To finish this chapter of our story
And bring the war within my head
And heart
To an end
Ember
The ardent glimmer in my eyes
Marks the first time I've truly been able to feel
I glow as my body warms at his touch
Gentle, yet at the same time, rough
Dragging his fingertips along my smooth skin
My cheeks are on fire as my lips repeatedly meet his
He's incredible,
A single star shining through the cloudy night sky
Or a lasting ember on a long lit cigarette
And mine,
All mine
I wake up
Tired
I'm tired
Tired of sleep
Of wanting to stay in bed all the time
Setting myself up to think
I'm tired
Tired of thinking
Of what would be a tiny scratch to someone else,
Being a bullet to me
I am sick
And tired
Of my mind
Acting as a battlefield
And my body
Exhibiting the wounds
